It is loss. That is what this is all about. It's a loss. Whether you lose a spouse by death or by divorce, it is a loss. I have prayed and prayed... and tried pinpointing what it is that is so hard for me to deal with. Without awareness of the issue, I cannot work.
It came to me today. It's a loss. I can handle the responsibilities of being a single parent. I can handle the stress of hearing the gossip that continues to fly. I can handle it all... it is a growing experience- but it's ok. God has and will grant me any tool I need to make it survive... All things work together for good for those who believe...
The loss... it is monumental and that is the issue I have now realized I must work through. It's a broken heart that must mend. Grief is grief, no matter how one looks at it.
A time for mourning is allowed... and it's necessary.