The Greatest Commandment

Love the Lord your God will all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your mind and with all your strength. Mark 12:30

Sunday, December 7, 2008


It is loss. That is what this is all about. It's a loss. Whether you lose a spouse by death or by divorce, it is a loss. I have prayed and prayed... and tried pinpointing what it is that is so hard for me to deal with. Without awareness of the issue, I cannot work.

It came to me today. It's a loss. I can handle the responsibilities of being a single parent. I can handle the stress of hearing the gossip that continues to fly. I can handle it all... it is a growing experience- but it's ok. God has and will grant me any tool I need to make it survive... All things work together for good for those who believe...

The loss... it is monumental and that is the issue I have now realized I must work through. It's a broken heart that must mend. Grief is grief, no matter how one looks at it.

A time for mourning is allowed... and it's necessary.


Mindy said...

It is a loss and you should definitely grieve! The anger you feel is part of that process- I am sure you know that. God is faithful and HE will see you through! Keep on keeping on.....
Also, read Erin's caring bridge page.. I had no idea about this obviously.....I wanted to tell you that while we don't have to deal with anything like you've had to deral with, Lillie did have renal reflux (very badly) and had surgery for it at 11 months.
Praying for you !!!!!

Mindy said...

Oh, love the new look and your tree looks fab!!!!

carol b said...

Wow!! I am absolutly amazed at the gift you have to put into words what you are feeling, thinking, etc... God is teaching you so much and you are making good choices. You are so right -about it being about choices and not being easy, and needing time. I pray for you, my friend, and am here when you need me.